as of today, the weight loss total is 38.4 pounds since the highest weight recorded in august.
38.4!!!
last night i ate an entire frozen pizza.
shut up.
with ranch sauce.
SHUT UP!!!
sigh.
the loss can only be attributed to being conscious of what i'm putting in my mouth. i swear. and not being COMPLETELY lazy. yes, i do my yoga (not all the time) and i even started training for a 5k at the urging (bullying? just kidding...) of my lovely future wife (we're both mostly straight but hey) - but some weird unexplained hip pain has slowed that to a halt (because i'm still somewhat lazy). when life is complete hell, i wrap up the hands and head to the basement to beat up the heavy bag. none of this is as consistent as i'd like, and time management being the skill i lack the most, life jumps in the way all the time. i'm fine with that, because i like life a lot. ;)
i also started guided meditation around the end of last summer, thanks to another friend who took all of the scary out of it by sharing a youtube video with me. i'm a stress eater, so that had to be part of what helped me not eat every tastykake in sight. (it's ok if you take the empty box to the register, right?)
thinking that starting this blog has had a hand in the weight loss as well, only because it's not all in my head anymore. some people even subscribed, which is always an ego boost, and it seems the larger the ego, the smaller the pants size? no? heh...
anyway. yesterday the loss was marked at 34 pounds. i have no idea where another 4.4 went, especially in light of that delicious pepperoni thin crust pizza, except that i had a cup and a half of chai in the morning and peed ALL DAY LONG...
the thing about having an hourglass figure is, you're curvy. (duh) so, even at the teeniest ever, you're never rail-thin. and if you let yourself, you'll look in the mirror at those round hips and round thighs and round arms and enormous tits, and think, i. am. fat.
111 pounds, kids, and i thought i was the size of a house.
i'm shooting for a healthier weight now (not that i'm doing a lot about it, but it does seem to be going in that direction and i'm not arguing!), and more than that, just, healthy.
says the girl who chowed down on god knows how many calories and fat grams at 6pm last night...
;)
